Ups & Downs

The UPs & DOWNs

Morning everyone.
Up:Woohh..the morning is very still here..quite spooky though.Aiyah,of course I'm not talking abt any haunted house,I'm talking abt my office.Today AVA is having its annual Staff Conference @ IPAm.Every AVA staff is supposed to attend.I'm attending the afternoon slot coz in the morning I've to man CEO's & my Director's phonecalls.So..in another werds I've to be stuck to my seat for the whole morning.And when I answer calls I've to be more polite than usual.(pause)
Up: As i was going up the Control station(MRT),i noticed one of the staff was helping one lady with a baby pram to go down th escalators.I didn't realli noticed who asked or offered for help but one thing for sure the MRT guy was doing his job smilingly n happily.
Down: I was feeling realli lousy yesterday.I was feeling ok till lunch when Sumi broke me the news;dat some pple have been talking behind my back.Something which realli bother me-why these pple nvr tell me off on my face.Is it becoz I'm wearing dis wide all these while?Is it wrong to have my own fren to help me settle my ofis problem?Just because u c me sitting down wif someone in front of my pc dat doesn't REALLY mean i'm chit chatting wif dat person.Hello,i got better things to do huh.I really think those pple who have been talkin' behind my back were the ones who're havin' problems n have nothing better to do!!
Down: As i was on my way back home my younger sis wanted me to find for her a large plastic bag so dat she could put in her A2 artwerk which she's supposed to submit today.I painstakingly though tired,went to Popular to get her the long tube specially to keep your art pieces in it.When i went back home,she pulled a long face n told me i've wasted my $8 on stuff which she doesn't realli need.She would rather carry that damn A2 pieces rather than having them rolled nicely n kept in that tube.Farnie huh.I was aldy fuming wif anger.Its not the $ dat matters-at least you thanked me for getting u dat stuff afterdat u can throw dat damn thing away.Pls appreciate what i've done for you my sis.After mumbling to myself,i just couldn't bring myself to look at her.I was angry wif her but i'm mad dat i couldn't control my anger.Sorry adik. **hug hug**
Down: as i was sleeping,i thought i was crying in my dreams yet when i opened my eyes,i could feel the tears brimming in my eyes.A lot of things have been hammered to me recently n i couldn't take it.Though i tried to conceal my sadness but hey-its like telling urself its Monday when its actualli Friday.u get what i meant?
ok,i better get going...
thanks for reading my post today...=)
p/s thanks Uncle Hoi for your advice.
Kursiah-I miss u ok.I need dat hug again.

Bon Voyage...

To Mr Jude Lim Seow Wee..

Wish him all the best in his new werkplace.

Leow Chin Wee from IAU also has left. Wee Heng just resigned recently too..

Gosh..all the good & fun pple are leaving AVA soon..

Dreamy me

Morning Rush

Morning everyone!![seems a bit quiet here...]
Well,since I'm having a bit of time now better blog a bit lah.
Actuali i wanted to blog yesterday,at home but..to my upmost surprise at ard 1700hrs I was craving for prawn fritters.hee hee..yeap..u c it correctly but nope..stop imagining things hor...I'M NOT pregnant.Its just dat my dad is gonna blanja the whole family soon(by rite-1st May) so i was thinkin why not now.So i wait no more n booked a car,called everyone to make sure they were for the idea of havin dinner outside.Moreover i was fastin' yesterday (maybe dat explains why i'm craving for the food yah?)
so at ard 1930 i brought the car back to my place..now I'm almost 98% confident to drive alone.(yet my younger sis still sit beside me lah) My dad as usual...couldn't stop grinning to himself (kot ngah angan2 tu kreta sendiri tak?hee hee)
We finally headed to Sinaran Seafood Restaurant @ Teck Whye Lane.Well,dis place is highly recommendedlah.But unfortunately my craving for prawn fritters ended the minute i set my eyes on the sotong fritter.har har..
When we finally went back..its aldy 2100 n me still want to go drive round n round Jurong West.I traced my route to mom's usual marketing place (in any case kite ade kreta sendiri then dat will be out first test route!)
okie..i've said & blogged enuff.Better start werk now..
My Boss Rossiyah may not be around-her son is hospitalised.Hope he's well now...i miss my Rossy Boss...
take care everyone!!!

No feelings

Feelingless??

Hi everyone.
Its been quite some time since I've last blogged.
I've been too caught up wif lots of werk-both at home & in ofis.No shaking legs huh.
Opps,.before i forget..just wanna wish my cuzin,Rozaini - Selamat Pengantin Baru!!.Sounds farnie yah..but its true.
To Uncle Hoi-if u reading dis: I'm not angry wif u and I dun have any reasons to be angry wif anyone yah??So,cheer up..n dun ask me to do 'dat' kind of favours anymore.hee hee
To my dear Kursiah: May all the wedding arrangements be completed soon.Noe u r putting a alot of effort in it..so all the best yah.When it comes to my majlis u better put in the same amount of effort too yah.**blink blink**
ok,another 4 mins lights will be switched on and we;ll be back to werk...
will continue blogging at home...

Turmoil

Turmoil

Actuali I'm supper dupper tired,however I can't rest..why??coz I've to massage my grandma's legs first.Am I complaining?Guess so...I dun mind massaging my dad's legs umpteen times but to....
gosh,its like the stress clock is mounted on me,I just need to breathe.
**close my eyes for a few seconds**
One pressure after another.
Its not dat I hate or dislike oldies [bearing in mind dat we'll grow old too] but everytiime I see my grandma I began to think of the pasts-of what she has done to my family.My family has been rumored,relationships have been strained & most of all my Dad has been hurt but eventually its my dad who bears the responsibilities.He didn't n ever raised his voice to his mother.
**taking a peep outside** Think she is waiting for me now...I've to go...(to be a good grand-daughter)
goodnite to everyone...
take care

A Smile Will Put ur Sorrow Away

[[A Smile a Day Chase the Sorrow Away]]

Hi everyone

Guess for the past few blogs I've sounded a bit sad,upset,disturbed...well,sorry guys,I couldn't help it.However,insyaAllah I'll sound more cheerful in future bloggings.Alhamdulillah.some of my prayers have been answered.I'm beginning to see a glimpse of light at the end of the dark tunnel..I'm almost there.

But b4 dat,let me just make myself clear,i dun hate anyone of u out there.As long as u like me to be around I'll be doubly happy to be around u guys.Unless u hate me to be around I'll be triply happy to be out of ur sight.

If some of u have noticed,I'm a bit secretive when it comes to discussing on things relating to relationships especially.I dun go around telling pple whom i'm dating rite now,which guy I dump last mth or which man has idolize me.Trust me,i won't do dat unless i've faith wif dat someone.I assume all these things are matter of the hearts n u can onli share them wif someone whom u trust as best & good frenz.

Its just so hard to 'look' sad these days.Well,once pple recognize ur cheerfulness & chirpiness all they expect from u all day long is a smile (at least) Once u potray dat 'sad' look,dats it ,pple will start asking-"Are u ok?","Eh Why??"..So to avoid all dat,one has to play mask everytime-wayang a bitlah.I've mastered dat technique well enuff.So even when I'm laughing out load,there may..MAY be possiblity dat inside me i'm cryin' out .Hee hee.Dats me.Of course,practice make perfect.If u NOE me,u'll understand dis whole process.Its a painful process at times but..hey..I'm what u c now...I'm PERFECTLY FINE.

ok guys..think I've blog enuff...
To WEE LING-I'm gonna miss u soon.How I wish u'll change ur decision & will still be in HQ.

To KURSIAH-y u nvr fail me to make me happy?? Well,for dat,u gain a penalty.Click here for more details. --->My Best Fren

To HUSNAWATI-kalau dah 'bede-bede' bilang tau!ehe.

take care everyone

Laze @ Home

My best fren-Too engrosed watching a horror documentary!

MC

=+Unfit+=

Hi all.
Sorry for not blogging for the past few days.
As some of u have aldy noe-I'm on mc today.However,its onli @ 1100 i went off to c doc.I was on a slightly high fever(38 degree Celcius),sore throat & headache.The doc was great.Though young he gave me a thorough check up.Actuali i dun favour male doc as usually i would ask for a female one.However just now the queue for the female doc was quite long so the clinic assistant recommended me the male one adding that dis particular doc is a GOOD one.So I gave it a shot.The minute he saw my werkplace add,he started asking whether Im a culler or not....etc.i told him I was not involved yet but will be..soon.Yeah,for your info,dear blog readers,even though we are in the admin line,we wld still be involved in the culling exercise(if any).I escaped last year coz at dat point of time i was onli a few mths old wif AVA .My fren Noorain who also went to c the doc gave a thumbs up saying dat the doc has reali gave thorough check up and even went to the details of using an inhaler.

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I noe,some of u out there must be wondering to whom did i directed all my blogs.Seriusly,how could i provide any explanation?These blogs were supposed to be MY journal.I got the right to say anything & everything.However,not what u've read summarised all the happenings.Sometimes,some things need to be kept to urself.At times I just need to vent my feelings,angers,happiness onto something-& dat will be thru blogging.Dis blog is not an intentional platform of disagreements,shoutbacks...but as a communication tool for u guys to noe me better; to understand my mood swings.So,to someone out there,THANKS for taking the time to read my blog.Thot u've long forgotten abt dis blogspot.

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10 mins b4 Maghrib,me & dad had a short conversation.While he was reading his book,he told me how his eyesight has worsened.He used to be long sighted but now even he has problem seeing far.His short sightness has worsened & it seems dat he could not see well on daylight.Then he further on saying dat he'll turn 60 soon,getting old aldy.My eyes brimmed wif tears aldy.I'm unsure if his health status;coz at times he'll complain of his numb fingers,rheumatism,poor eyesight & constant coughings.I had asked him to stop smoking yet he told me once he stop werking he'll do dat.Neway,according to him,he reduce his habit aldy.

u c..its heart wrecking to think dat one fine day u would lose someone u love.I have loved my dad all these while & i won't stop loving him till the last bit of my breathe.I would do anything & everything to make him happy.Though i have lost my mood to continue my conversation wif him(coz i couldn't control my tears aldy) he asked me whether i still want get a car. i told him even though owning a car would be my greatest dream ( & also his) i have to tell him dat if i'm the sole owner of the car then it wld be a slight burden 4 me.

oppss,my headache is coming....

when i came to werk just now,i felt a slight difference.yeah,my neighbour cum auditor-Jude Lim Seow Wee has left.One by one pple whom i adore has left.Jude-dun 4get me yah.Visit us when u r free.

ok,me gotta go.Not sure if I've the energy to fold the clothes or not.

Salam.

Goodnite

Missing Me

**i'M Not sure**

if my temperature is rite or not;
if i'm beginning to miss my dear colleagues who are gonna resign soon;
if my werkload is too much or just nice;
if my finances is ok or not-whether it can support me during my rainy days;
if the pple ard me reali like me or not;
if I'm too nice to pple or not;
if I'm ready to have a life companion yet.
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I'm still unsure..
I can freak out anytime now...whats strong wif me huh?
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Last Friday,i took an urgent half day pm leave-just to pay a visit to my dear Ustaz-KP @ ROMM.Missed him dearly.His soft spoken werds soothe my wretched,unpeaceful mind.Well,i didn't stay long thou coz he has to perform his friday's prayer.Ustaz,we'll meet up soon ok,however,can u stop pressuring me to setel down?Pleeassee...thks.=))[my dear Ustaz is too concern 4 me]

I wish I've a cat to play wif rite now..[remind me of my late cat,PIPIN]
ok,gotta continue wif my werk...
salam.